There's a light at the end of the tunnel....right?

I never know when to think and pray for something to happen, when to stop thinking about it, when to keep my mouth shut from talking about it, when to pat myself on the back, when to let others pat me on the back, when to sit with my emotions, whether they're good or bad, when to push things out of my head, or when to have hope that something will happen. I'm scared, but I don't want to talk about it. I'm also hopeful but trying to be neutral. I want to know when the worrying will stop.

Time to (continue) working my butt off.