Babble babble babble

I worry that I get too much satisfaction out of checking things off lists sometimes. I know that sounds ridiculous, but really, I do something good and I think, "Okay great, now I can lie in bed and read, the only thing else I have to do is practice singing and I'm done for the day." But that just isn't how the world works, now is it? I'm not lazy or anything, I just put too much bearing on the little things, like applying for these acting classes I want to take in a few weeks. I mean all I did was touch up my resume, write a letter of intent and submit my headshot, did that really take all that much effort? No. So why does it feel like it did? Silly Mikayla, sending an emailing isn't exactly like saving the world.

Funny, as I just wrote that as I'm lying here in bed thinking about the book I'm reading. With my heating pad on...... drinking tea....

I'm reading Moni Yakim's "Creating a Character" which is all about his acting technique. It's interesting because he goes about it with the physical approach first, which is meant to bring on the emotional aspects naturally through the character's movement. I've been trained the exact opposite way, consistently trying to tap into someone else's emotions by relating them to a situation in my life, which I think is actually in some ways more difficult. A coach I work with in New York sometimes (who has absolutely changed my life) goes about deciphering the real hard working artists and the lazy ones by shaking them to their core, flipping them upside down, letting everything come out and then re-building them. I've gone through this process with him a million times. His theory is totally correct in my opinion- if you can't make it through your own threshold, how in the world are you ever going to let anyone else in, or maybe say over 1,000 people? So this Moni Yakim fellow's technique is really confusing for me, as you may have been able to tell. But hey, why not try it. I'll probably get frustrated, not getting it at first, but I guess that's all part of the process. Now THAT is actually hard work. It's more than worth it though.

Enough babble, time to read.