To over-think or to not over-think, that is the question

     Tonight I had a discussion with my friend about a situation I was previously faced with and how I dealt with it. Before things really got heated, my other friend quickly commented on how many times she had heard me rant about the same topic, and how she would really prefer not to hear it again. She thought I was just trying to sound intelligent, or something along those lines.

     Now with this particular topic, I can assure you I am not just trying to sound intelligent. My views on it come from my gut; I wouldn't feel so strongly about them if they didn't. I always trust my gut. So now I'm trying to sort out the underlying reasoning behind why she said this, because I simply cannot come up with a straight answer.

     The first one to come to mind would be how in English, she is the girl with the argument. She loves to debate, and it is justified by how good she is at it. Now in this situation, I'm the one with the legitimate argument; which may have intimidated her in some way causing her to not take part in the conversation (she normally would have). In some weird way, she's obviously pissed off by the fact that I'm not stupid.

     This is similar reasoning to how she may have just been jealous. She tends to comment on how my comments during class are not thought out and unjustified; therefore when I have some kind of, "intelligent insight" she does not understand why she did not have it first. 

     Thirdly, she may just simply think my views are not all that intelligent. Although in this particular case, I did not go into all the detail I could have. I failed to mention how my actions affected the other persons emotions, so I guess I didn't go into too much detail. But really, who cares. It shouldn't matter when you're just having a conversation amongst your friends.

     The funny thing is, all the thoughts that are being consumed by my mind currently do not revolve around the topic itself; they are all questioning why my friend said she did not want to hear my rant. Like I said in a recent blog, whether or not I'm over-thinking this does not matter; I like to form an opinion. I would rather have a thought-provoking conversation that gets my brain working than sit and by completely numbed to everything going on around me. 

     Although in the end, she may have just been tired.