Triple gah.

I feel weird because I have lots to say but no idea how to write them down. I need to make a list to clear things up.

1. Why the #$%* does "Sleep Now" by Barber have to drive me so crazy? I know it like the back of my hand, and all I want is for it to be perfect. It's such a tough piece.

2. I need to do something about my confidence. Sometimes it's good, sometimes it's bad. I know I'm singing well, I know that boy loves me more than he ever has, I know that working out is paying off, slowly but surely, and I know my theory skills are improving. Why am I still depressed?

3. I am frustrated whenever I see shows at UBC because I know everyone but not everyone knows me. Plus, I know I could sing so many of those roles up on stage. Gah.

4. Audition stress. So far it's been manageable, but still, I think it's manifesting in everything I do. Gah.

5. I'm scared to let that boy in completely because I'm scared of giving him that power.

6. I hate Monday morning shifts.

7. I need to find a flight from JFK to Montreal and back the next night that actually works out timing wise. Double gah.

8. I need to open up more in general, acting wise. Scary.

9. I need to stop obsessing over what I eat.

10. I need to trust people, especially myself, more.

oh ya...

and 11. I need to get the run from the C to the F in Quel Guardo correct everytime. Why do i have such a mental block about it?

Help?