There's no shortcut to a dream, it's all blood and sweat and life is what you manage in between

I'm good. Things are good. Life is good. I think I've written to many negative blogs. I'm good, and that's all. Monday will be great, and so will the 27th. I'm painfully ready for them.

This time, next month, I'll be done all my auditions! And THAT is all.

.....aka, this time next month I plan on being on a beach somewhere tropical.

Triple gah.

I feel weird because I have lots to say but no idea how to write them down. I need to make a list to clear things up.

1. Why the #$%* does "Sleep Now" by Barber have to drive me so crazy? I know it like the back of my hand, and all I want is for it to be perfect. It's such a tough piece.

2. I need to do something about my confidence. Sometimes it's good, sometimes it's bad. I know I'm singing well, I know that boy loves me more than he ever has, I know that working out is paying off, slowly but surely, and I know my theory skills are improving. Why am I still depressed?

3. I am frustrated whenever I see shows at UBC because I know everyone but not everyone knows me. Plus, I know I could sing so many of those roles up on stage. Gah.

4. Audition stress. So far it's been manageable, but still, I think it's manifesting in everything I do. Gah.

5. I'm scared to let that boy in completely because I'm scared of giving him that power.

6. I hate Monday morning shifts.

7. I need to find a flight from JFK to Montreal and back the next night that actually works out timing wise. Double gah.

8. I need to open up more in general, acting wise. Scary.

9. I need to stop obsessing over what I eat.

10. I need to trust people, especially myself, more.

oh ya...

and 11. I need to get the run from the C to the F in Quel Guardo correct everytime. Why do i have such a mental block about it?

Help?